Dear Baby, We think you're a "he"...

16 weeks

Well, the doc says he thinks you are a boy. When Daddy asked how sure he was, he said 70%. We find out “for sure” on August 12th when we go to the good sonogram machine to see you. You were moving around and looking good. I still haven’t felt you yet though!

This was a weird week. A young man where I work died unexpectedly (car accident). Before you, I felt very unattached to mortality. I was comfortable with going at any moment and even pretty comfortable with Daddy going at any moment. Sure, I’d be sad about all the earthly things I’d miss out on, really sad to walk through life without Daddy; but I know where I’m going, and I know where he’s going and going there sooner rather than later just didn’t sound all bad. But now…now there’s you. And I find myself rather attached to this life for the first time. The thought of me not being here to raise you, or the thought of me raising you without Daddy…it almost makes me panic. Definitely feelings I’ve not had before.

Next time we see you, they’ll do the “anatomical sonogram”—making sure you have all the parts you’re supposed to and that they’re developing as they should. Keep growing strong.

Here’s what you were up to this week:

You are getting prepared for a growth support over the next several weeks! Your head is more erect now than it has been in the previous weeks. Your ears and eyes are situated in their final positions. Several of your more complicated body systems are beginning to function, including your urinary and circulatory systems. Your heart pumps around 25 quarts of blood per day. By week 40, this amount will increase to 1,900 quarts per day.

You are now approximately 5.31 inches long and weigh 2 ½ ounces.

These were my prayers for you this week:

That Daddy and I will be here to parent you, but that if something happens to either or both of us, the Man Upstairs will send you the best pinch hitter(s) ever.

Love,

Momma